The Spot
Last sunday while they were preparing to attend a birthday, mum noticed something on Kenzo’s hair. We initially thought he played with his hair by snipping it, or his classmates did it to him. When we asked about it and he was scared to give us an answer and wont even let us to see it. We tried to convince him to tell us what had happened but he cowered under the blanket or pulled up his hoodie tightly to his head. He wont show or talk about it. He was crying. And my heart is breaking at that moment. He was as confused and scared as we were. I think it happened about 2 to 3 weeks ago because the last time we went to the barber (around xmas) it was not there.
It was a bald spot. And it is really scary. I am very worried now about his health and the emotional drawback of being bald. Last night I tried to take a peak while he was lying down and it was about 4 inches wide. It is not noticeable now because his hair is covering it, hard to notice unless you move most of his hair. He has a thick and coarse hair that serves him well now cause it hides the spot.
Kenzo since his toddler years was reserved, aloof to people that he is not comfortable with. He only has a handful of close friends that he keeps, he is not a normal kid that plays with everyone. He is active when comforatble but initially very cautious with his social interaction. He is a classic introvert. I think he dont have much of a confidence, he is not assertive, he is what you can call “shy”. But that was ok with me, as I am like that too. Shyness is normal and not everyone can be playfully egregarious or loud etc.. we embraced his shyness and he just walk around it everytime. But this lack of strong self-worth is his enemy if this spot escalate.
This “spot” plus his low self image is terrible for him. I dont know how he will cope and handle this. I can just imagine the social trauma on him, the teasing, the bullying from other kids and as a parent this is breaking my heart.